Really need a serious update here.
I fucked The Australian, so far four times, three in a mate's bed without him knowing (mwa-ha-ha-ha).
He's 26 now, and I'm 19. I wonder what he thinks of me, yknw?
Am I just some chick, a cunt to fuck, or am I a beautiful young Scottish flower, blooming beautifully to his touch?
He's leaving in 2 months, and I'm headfucked.
The Sailor that I wrote about in my last "entry" on here..
Well I fancy his brother. And apparently he fancies me. Is that weird?
He's 16. His name is Dan, but I'll call him The Nazi..
The reason being: He has a shaved head, and I loooove that look.
I haven't pulled him, but I really want to.
I feel torn, completely.
Last night The Australian and The Nazi were both at a party, and I wanted the Nazi more.
It felt strange. I felt strange. I believe I pushed the Austraian away. I feel like cutting myself open for it.
How could I?
I smoke Marlboro Reds
And dream of self destruction
Somebody save me.